reflections entry 16

wednesday night

good evening everyone...in america or other countries..

finally got the chance to enter my blog...yesterday the disk or hard disk how you call that didnt work...dear husband try and try to fixed it with other programs...didnt helped..so he has buyed a new disk wich will be in a couple of days in the mail..

gladly i have a laptop..which honest i dont understand how people can type in such a small monitor...huubs laptop is bigger..but still i prefer a pc...lol

so in the mean time cant upload my own pictures..its kind of difficult..im sure its possible but i dont have the time right now.

lol  you can imagine my laptop wich i got as gift from huubs mom is very slow..so i let it on before i got to work...still i thank God that the rest works...

has being raining the whole day for 2 days here... i missed some of you...who dont say much...keep the contact ok? is someone here (me) that think about you..yes really...but i do understand we all have a life and family to take care of..

if you want to talk to me just email me..its not much but i will be gladly to answer you..at work has being very difficult for me in many areas...but each day is a new challange..i ask God give me strenght..some times we are all burned out...but jesus nows all whats going on he does and he really cares.

going to check my mail...now and going to sleep...its bedtime...loves

reflections entry 14

Saturday...12 may...13:14 hours

Another quiet day for me..i love saturdays cause i can have time for myself ...huub has gone to help a friend as usual...so after doing my home stuff start to work on my blog and facebook...

asking myself where are my blog friends that i have a long time i dont hear anything only from 2 or 3..hope the lord is working in you all lifes...im sure he does..wanted to share today what im up to these days..

i had in mind for a long time to visit the corrie ten boom museum in (haarlem ) so now that im having free days at work..will try to pick up a day and just go...i search information on internet...i now how to go there with the train...but i inform about the opening hours...

its open from 10 in the morning untill 2:30 in the afternoon from tuesday untill saturday...and are always free voluntairs that welcome people and just give you a tour around the hiding place... one days they give the tour in inglish others in dutch...its all on the door informed

hope when i get there they give the tour in inglish for all my usa friends...but im going good equiped with my camera and cellphone to make a video and pictures...because i dont now if im aloud to make videos inside the place..

but from the outside i can...i will see what i can do...dont now what to expect..but im really exicited about it...also tomorrow is mothers day..and i think my son will visit me..hope so...will be a quiet sunday...

im sure you notice on the right side bar about the giveaway...hope you join..this is something i will be doing when the lord tells me to...right now i felt to do it...and blessed someone..

hope everyone have a blessed and happy mother's day tomorrow..and next week will make my saturdays home video as i said before.

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nice weekend everyone..

my reflections entry 13

May 9....wednesday

Another day still dark its early in the morning after having a good sleep even yesterday my therapist massage my shoulder..thought would woke up with pain..but its ok... getting ready to work..always early in the morning is my best hour to pray...the peace of the morning ...i love it..

thinking also on my vacation days..which will start on 24 untill 4 june...are not much but i can use them to get things done at home

noticing also that not much people post on the blogs...dont now what is going on on people's life..but untill i can and have time i will post..when i feel i cant i will stop...


thanking God that at least i can wake up and go to work..even i wish could be more at home..


i cant get of my mind all the situations at work..which are little less now praise God! but yesterday dont now why i start to look unnoticed to all coworkers..and think..why this people just reject God? arent they affraid that some day they will stand before a sovereign God..


we pray for them for years as long as i came to now the thruth of Jesus christ...still i noticed how the enemy just play with people's life...and they think because they do good thats all..its something but what about salvation???

. A million years from now the eternal life with God, which people may presently struggle to imagine and believe in, will be very much a tangible reality. 

I firmly believe that Christ can satisfy my deepest thirst 

It’s tough staying in the will of God with our thoughts, our words, and our actions when many around us are obviously giving God no place in their lives. It’s a challenge to keep focusing on Christ when circumstances and problems demand so much of our attention.

“Satan does not fill us with hatred of God, but with forgetfulness of God.”
Dietrich Bonhoeffer

The kingdoms of this world seem very real right now, the feast in the kingdom of God seems a distant hope but we do well to remember that Jesus says to us, “the kingdom of God is within you.” (Luke 17:21) I thought I’d remind you of that!

reflections entry 12

SATURDAY MORNING

Here i am...glad because the weekend is here...having to do my home cleaning checking mails spending time with God with my husband...still happy when finally after a hard working week i can be at home the whole day...lol

was at work yesterday and when finally thought on leaving...got a phone from my son that he will pick me up with the car to bring me at his home so i help him to do something..we do that for our children..seems..even they are grow up they need us all the time...i love that in a way

and last night after coming home..(he brought me) was thinking on how relationships family everything costs us something....seems to me like i only give give give and give..

still giving is something valueble more than receiving..when i think about how God uses me to influence not only my son but other women..it seems to me of great value...

have been a very 2 hard weeks...with all kind of confrontations at work..dissapointments..rejections from people to my person..its just too much for words....but still i feel peace because i now and understand what God is doing..aleluya!

so whether its a relationship with God a friend a co worker a fellow worker at church its going to have to cost me something 

when it comes to God, jesus said..if anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me..Luke 9:23

sometimes we have to have some honest comunicating to move things back to a better balance

the reality is that i have to give as well as take..

when i start giving ..my time my friendship my patiences my love seem costly but i will get back what i pay for..

Is has being 2 hard weeks...but i have experience God's hand thrue these though weeks..in a great way!

thank you jesus..

reflections entry 11

QUESTIONS

1. Tomorrow i am__________________

going to check some summer stuff

2 when is your birthday?

  oktober

3 what are you currently excited about?

  

gardening

     

4 Do you have any secrets?

Not any....that God cant see..

   

5 what do you normally eat for lunch?

sandwiches

wednesday morning thoughts...entry 10

Good morning all friends..finally im here again...after finding out that on wednesday the pc makes a automatically update...wich i came up with the word i always say ....our patiences are being tested over and over again..the internet is being soooo slow and i download pictures with a lot of trouble...

you might ask yourself what i am up to...these days...well waiting glady  the month of may...to fix my backyard and front yard...so in the summer we can enjoy some time with the family and that it be finished for the winter..as we getting old we cant... keep grass and that kind of gardening but i love gardening..flowers home decorations..all of it...its a part of a woman...

 i had a ???.... with someone at work wich  i was amazed that the lord give me the patiences and wisdom to handle that..was my sister in the lord and coworker...we all have a bad day...but still the lord show me that i have to pray for her and love her...speaking about agape love !


this post seems little strange but huub and i were talking about agape love...only jesus had that...its difficult...really difficult...not letting our emotions speak...and instead just do what God ask us.to ..but im learning that..


i have being dealing with an issue here...
people ask me the whole time (singel christian ladys ) how do i now when a man is send from God to be your husband ?





have you experienced this ?


You met someone that is

 truthful, open and honest. He takes you out to dinner and doesn't expect anything in return and makes all the right noises about his interest in being committed. 

 how can you tell when you've really picked the right guy?

Read on:

some men who wants to marry you by Date 2. if he is so  anxious to be married, don't you think he is the one ? , most men who start out very intensely burn out very quickly. After all, you don't think you are the only one he's ever been that crazy about, do you? Settle instead for someone who calls, texts or emails you a reasonable number of times. And one who has reasonable expectations of your relationship. Allow your relationship to begin at a slower pace and develop naturally - this will help it to last.

Okay, he makes a lot of money, money isnt a reason to marry a man..even a man that works and take care of his family is the best... but he hasn't always made a lot of money. And he probably wasn't always the most fiscally responsible person in the world. So don't let him lead you to believe otherwise. Also, he's done both good and bad in his past, so be on the lookout if he colors all his stories in his favor. Look for someone he gives you a fair and balanced re-telling of past struggles, issues or relationships. And, speaking of relationships:

 He doesn't blame his last girlfriend for all of their problems.

If he begins his stories about his ex with phrases like, 'she mistreated me', 'she was no good', 'I tried to make it work, but she refused to try', or 'she was nothing but a manipulator', run far, far away! As previously mentioned, he has done both good and bad in his past. And this goes double for anything he did in his last relationship. She may not have been perfect, but he definitely wasn't either. There are three sides to every story - his side, her side and the truth. Try to find someone who gets as close to the 'truth' as possible.

 He's consistent.

Remember how he used to call you five times a day? It's okay if it goes down to once or twice (a day), but once or twice a week? That's something to worry about. And don't accept the excuse that he all of a sudden doesn't have time. Somehow, he found time before, right? It takes two minutes to place a phone call, send an email or text message. Hold him accountable. But, on the flip side, if he only called you once or fewer times per day, don't expect him to start calling three or four times a day now. Observe his original pattern. Learn it. And see how close (or how far) he strays from it. There are few things worse than inconsistency in someone of whom you have greater epxectations.

. His actions follow his words.

This goes two ways: he doesn't make promises he doesn't intend to keep and he does what he says he's going to do. He doesn't promise to spend more time with you this weekend if he knows he's going to be tied up in meetings. And he remembers to bring you a cheeseburger from McDonald's on his way home from work (like he said he would). Don't trust a man that constantly breaks his promises or makes promises he doesn't keep.

This is my short and sweet list, but feel free to comment and let me know of other traits that I'm sure to have missed! I'm also interested in hearing success stories from others who have found 'the one'.

rainy wednesday...entry 8

wednesday morning little early but also late..for checking my posts...can  answer but in the weekend...between feeling physically so tired...im glad i did something good for someone special who needed me.

my reflections are most of how i go thrue the day...yesteday (tuesday) wasn't that much work..at 4 so i just bow my head on my desk and got asleep...lifted up my head and some one (woman) walk beside my desk and just start to insult me.

yes as you hear ....the reason i dont now i dont even now her??? i just walk away...cause i now were this comes from...i told the lord lord untill when we have to suffer persecution? my heart is heavy today not because of that ...but because i have my trials of my own...and certain out of nothing comes more on me

i just had to walk so far from home cause my bus card...is having some problems everyone is dealing with this untill the sistem fixes...so walk to my job and come back home at 5 you can imagine how exhausted is that ..walking and walking

im leaving right now too..to work...i came home yesterday at 5 and just start to cry...cause many times i just feel   .just cry by the lord...and trying to keep moving...certainly i now it will all pass but we have periods that we just have to walk thrue it.

and this is the time im living...for...but in the middle of that im so happy that the lord give me the chance to talk about him to my son yesterday...and wow he did listen for once! my heart as mother was releave  that i told him that jesus loves him..

that life is more than money stuff and making carreer...that jesus wants to be the lord of his life..he did listen! can you believe that??

and this morning.... only because of that fact last night...it makes it all worth for me...all what huub and i are going thrue...huub and i stick together in good and bad ...i thank God for my loving husband...wow what a nice spirit he has...he has support me..all these weeks

when God uses me to reach someone a family member no matter i feel its all worth it...

cause thats what life is all about..
so please friend...lets keep praying for each other

they have predicted rain the whole week in our home town...but here i am starting a day more enthousiastic...im just posting this cause i want you to now...im praying for you...small or big...we all have our issues...

but the good news...Jesus is on our side...he is right there...he is going no were! 

here a little video might encourage you this morning...

Isaiah 40:31

but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

reflections entry 7

I was praying the other day while I was feeling overwhelmed by everything that was going on in my life. Between school, work, friends, family, ministry, etc., how christians treat each other.... ..(im being honest ) I was beginning to feel like it was all a bit too much.

So I prayed and went through this whole griping and moaning routine about my life, trying to get God to feel sorry for me and maybe do some type of miracle so that I could maybe feel better about myself (admit it - you do it, too!). And somewhere in the midst of my self-pity, I learned a pretty interesting thing:

What is true? That's the questioned that was presented to me. What is true, I wondered. Well, it's true that I am tired and run-down and  Okay, I was asked then, what is 'True'? And I'm thinking, what's the difference?

The difference, I discovered, was the difference between what was technically going on in my life (true) versus the spiritual lessons I was learning ('True'). Yes, it was true that I was often tired and run-down from trying to manage multiple obligations, but it was also 'True'

 that I was learning patience, endurance and long-suffering. And, yes, it was true that things had not worked out exactly the way I had planned, but it was also 'True' that I had learned to have greater faith and greater trust and had more confidence that God's will for my life was much better than any of my own plans.

So, the next time you're having a tough day, just remember to compare your 'true' with your 'True'. God is still working in your life and you can find the lesson in almost every experience.

Be Blessed!